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d kid next door...

I was so certain that i have seen this phase b4...

I'm in Geneva now... alone... and t'was so cold outside... i thought the sun could help me feel a little bit warmer, but dahhhh the wind suddenly freeze me down... and so i decided to go back to my room...

as i was saying, i was so certain that I've seen this phase b4... that little gurl cuddled by her mom next door... i looked at her... she looks at me... so silenty... so magical.. as if she was telling me something... i smiled... she stared... i frowned... she remains staring at me... then her mom suddenly ask her, "baby, would you love to go down and play?"... she remains silent... staring at me... then.... my tears fell..... i saw her hugging her mom so tight saying... "NO mommy... i'm scared to be alone..."

The kid next door is like a silhouette of my childhood days.... i miss home... i terribly miss home....... "mommy... i miss hugging you when i'm scared..." ;(

Damn me...

Damn these hands of mine

Writing again another line...

Damn this heart of mine

If it meant again to release a sigh...

Thinking of you never ever escapes me

From battling with my pride and my stupidity

I know i already have you deep within me

But why this missing feeling comes unpredictably?

Sometimes i wonder if i really can make it up there?

Waiting in line to see you asking for your fair share...

Sometimes i felt so tired i even got so scared

Will our love be enough to bring us back together?

Hayyy here i am again feeling so weak and sad

I just miss you badly and those times we've had

But don't be afraid dear coz im still holding on to that

A promise from me to you to be your toughest lad........

I can make it up there... trust me...

I just miss you badly... terribly....

My love for you will never ever fade...

Even if i have to face again a thousand heartaches...

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

June 28, 2007 (Thursday)

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Days and nights are passing by

I felt so weak I wanna cry

Imagining you hugging me so tight

I just couldn't help my tears run dry...

I miss those days that I am with you

How we spend the night dreaming and wishing through

If I could just make hold of the time, I'll do

I'll be freezing it forever the moment I'm with you...

Coz I miss you so badly I really really do

If only I could reach you and tell you how true

I wanna spend my whole life loving you

I just wanna be right beside you too...

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

April 10, 2007 (Tuesday)

Aircraft from AUH-MUC

I Miss You...

I have cried a million times

Felt so low like you never mind

Alot had been bothered they asked me why?

I said nothing really there's just something in my eye.

And then days passed they've noticed I'm not the same

I usually laugh out loud but now t'was like no one came

They ask me what happen lately I've been so strange?

I said don't worry about me really nothing had changed.

'Coz the silence I've made was not because I'm sad

I was just too bothered by you and the time you've had

Lately you've been so busy I often get mad

I know I shouldn't be 'coz you're not doing something bad.

But tell me Dear what's best I should do?

Will my waiting be enough to tell you it was true

That I never was jealous whoever is with you?

I just simply wanna feel you misses me too...

'Coz... I do...

I miss you....

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

March 8, 2007 (Thursday)

I love you my kuya

I was seated on my jumpseat above 10,000 feet

Looking through my window feeling each and every heart beat

When i was thinking 'bout you my subconsciousness runs deep

I found myself asking: Is our relationship worthy to keep?

I was too far from you physically unseen

Too far for you to even hug and lean

Though we were talking everyday still it seems

Distance hunts me everywhere i've been.

I love you my Kuya, i really really do

That's why all i'm asking is for you to be true

Coz if there is only one word that i believe unto

T'was the promises of love and forever from you.

And so no matter how far Ate seems to be

And no matter how many times she falls weak as you see

She will never get tired loving you sincerely

Coz all she believes in is that, you are her destiny!

I love you my kuya...

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

February 27, 2007 (Tuesday)

Aircraft from AUH-JFK

Missing Him...

I am missing someone so bad...

That i couldn't help but let myself been crazily mad...

I am deeply inlove with a very 'miles away' man...

That all i could do is imagine reaching him by my hand...

Hmmm...

Did he ever knew i was thinking of him?

Did he ever felt the love that distance bring?

If i could just make some miracles about things...

Then i could be with him without any split thingking...

I miss him so much i really really do...

If you happen to see him please tell him that too...

I am so down now that i don't know where to go...

Should i hug him in my dreams or just let anybody know?

Hmmm...

Did he ever knew i was thinking of him?

Did he ever felt the love that distance bring?

If i could just make some miracles about things...

Then i could be with him without any split thingking...

I just really really miss him........

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

August 19, 2006

(Saturday)

Uncertain Times...

I may never be perfect in anybody's eyes...

I could never be perfect even though how much i tried...

I am only human and that's a fact i cannot deny...

I am nothing but just an ordinary me that has nothing to hide...

Yes, i am strong that's what i seem to be...

Never was afraid to any difficulty...

But just like any waves that you noticed to see...

I also had my hard times when controlled by the sea...

I might sometimes seem to be so wild and crazy...

Just like any happy go lucky girl full of fantacy...

But then just like you and any other thee...

I also cried so hard like an unguarded baby...

And so if ever time will come and then you will see...

I fell down from a very steep though shallow tree...

Please go back and take a look at me...

I might needed your help or from just anybody...

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

August 15, 2006

(Tuesday)

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Circumstances had taught us that life is unfair

It seems to be always unjust and bare

When things go wrong and you are in despair

A friend seems to be lost somewhere.

Sometimes you thought that's just what it brings

Confusions and doubts to question our fears

But then you must analyze if all are in glee

How can anyone feel the beauty that we see?

Life my friend is like a wondering bee

Sometimes it seem to be naughty and free

But when it starts producing the sweetest honey

Everyone seems to be proud and truly happy.

It is like exactly what you've been through nowadays

You seem to be having a lot of dismays

You start to questions all the things that you feel

When all that you do is to love her real.

My friend my friend life is like that

Sometimes you knew the answers sometimes you do not

But then life must go on and you must believe

If someone is lost someone won't leave...

So keep your head high and take a deep breath

Tell the whole world you are willing to bet

That someday you'll know what God has set

And it is something you knew you would never regret!

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

October 15, 2003

(Wednesday)

I kissed goodbye, goodbye!

The world already had taught me to see

"Goodbyes" are always part of the journey

Whenever someone says "hello" to me

I should have expected the pain it carries me.

Yes oh yes I really hate "goodbyes"

It made my heart wanted to cry

And even though how much I really try

It seems to me that time does justify.

But then I know and I always hope

Someday I'll find someone to hold

To him I know I will never grow cold

Coz he will be like an angel God behold.

And so this time I chose to fight

I will start kissing goodbye, goodbye

Coz in time I know all those tears will dry

And soon they'll say, "Aubrey" nice try!

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

October 9, 2003

(Thursday)

Till Then...

Once in my life I tried knowing someone new

Once in my life I thought it was already you

Never have I imagine what I am suppose to do

After loving my past so much now I turned to you.

But I guess it is just another nightmare

Thinking that we will end up together

I thought it would be you who'll teach me forever

I was definitely wrong when I heard you still loved her.

Oh, How it really hurt me so much

Knowing you haven't been out of your past

But still I am here to prove it right to you

I can let you go just to see hapiness in you.

That is why I am telling this to you now

Go to her and don't ever ask me how

'Coz though life will be like a hell when you're gone

Heaven still i'll feel when I see you with your sun!

And before I leave please let me add

Promise me you will never be sad

Go and tell the world you want her back

Do love her please more than what I've given up!

Till then...

By: Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

September 29, 2003

(Monday)

Sa Oras Ng Aking Pag-iisa

Maaaring sa oras na ito ako na nama'y nag-iisa,

Iniisip na lamang kung ika'y nasa'n na kaya?

Sa bawat paglipas ng umaga at gabi,

Lagi ko na lamang naaalala ang iyong mga ngiti.

Kailan ko pa nga ba kaya makakalimutan ka?

Sa halos lahat ng oras anino mo'y wari'y nadarama.

Sa bawat saglit lang na ako'y nag-iisa,

Mukha mo parati ang aking nakikita.

Minahal nga cguro kita ng labis-labis sinta,

Kaya ako ngayo'y nahihirapang mapalitan ka.

Sino nga kayang tao ang makakalamang pa,

Sa taas ng iginuhit mo sa puso ko'y marka na?

Ngunit ganun pa man, ako ay umaasa,

Darating din ang bukas at ako'y 'di na mag-iisa.

Magkaganun pa ma'y pasasalamatan parin kita,

Ng dahil sa iyo ako ay mas tumapang pa!

Ni: Aubrey-V G. PIlapil

August 2, 2003

(Saturday)

A distant love...

Never have I thought I would love a guy like this...

Never have I imagined I could feel such a hapiness...

When I am with you I feel the world was so so true...

When I am with you I never ever had the reason to be blue...

I love you so much my dearest kuya Ted...

Because of you I felt really really blessed...

I don't only have a lover who could make me smile all day...

I also had a soulmate, that is really needless to say...

For this time I know we have to live separately...

Had our own lives fixed first 'coz that's reality...

But then I know even if I won't be seeing you physically...

I would still feel that love you're offering endlessly...

So as time itself chooses to separate us now...

By heart I know we will meet again by vow...

I do believe that our God is preparing that somehow...

I don't wanna dare ask when, or where, or how...

I love you so much my kuya and I know u know that...

Though I'm acting sometimes like a silly spoiled brat...

For you I promise to be the strongest and toughest lad...

I will remain inlove with you forever no matter what!

Ate Aub's

(June 23,2006)

Friday @ Brussels

It's hard for me to say it, But... Goodbye!

It's hard for me to really decide

Whether I'll stay behind your side

It's hard for me to realize

If I could still stare at your glazing eyes.

It's hard for me to really lie

What i feel for you was so sublime

But what can I do if it's not yet time

Or maybe because you're really not mine.

It's hard for me to let you go

Forget those years I waited though

Because I know you love me too

Just time will say if it's really true.

But now I want to say goodbye

I'll wait for you no longer time

'Coz I know my Dear if you're really mine

You'll be with me someday sometime.

It's hard for me to say it,

But... Goodbye!!!

Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

January 24, 2000

(Monday)

SAYONARA

Many of my friends kept on asking me why

When I lost you it seems like they never saw me cried

Though the truth is they don't know how much I tried

Holding you back before I finally said goodbye.

Yes they were right when they count the months we've shared

It was only too short yet we manage to show them we cared

But can't you tell me then how should I really react

Don't you think crying will be such a worthy act?

Coz yes i lost you and that's the saddest part

I never imagined you'd soon break my heart

But now as you see just because of that

I realized something they really never had.

And that is...

Only I saw in you the things they failed to see

Only I felt the pain you tried to hide on thee

It was only I who happens to read your mind

Though you don't talk that much I can see it straight in your eyes.

You trusted me so deeply that you made me realized

It was only I who could bring out that glitters in your eyes

Coz during those times you thought nobody understands you

You turned on me and said, "I know you do."

So don't you think my friend I should be happier then

I celebrated those moments knowing only on me you depend?

Your hapiness lies on me and that you cannot deny

I onced played a special part on your life you can't lie.

And so as time itself chooses to end it all this way

I should have been thankful for that friendship we play

We might not be that lucky to see each other again in time

But atleast I know you have been once a good friend of mine.

Sayonara...

Aubrey-V G. Pilapil

January 27, 2004

(Tuesday)